Jonathan Brandis

He's gone. I've been a total ignoramus for the past 10 years, that i didn't realize that he passed away in 2003. I've loved him since I was eight. And at 30 now, I've just found out 3 days ago that he's gone..forever.

I was just googling through my favourite kid actors when I was younger...and I found out this. I don't care how he died, all I know is that he's a good actor, and if he's still alive I would have supported him the way I did when I was eight. A real fanatic of JON.

RIVER PHOENIX

I remembered crying over his death when I was still at secondary school. He'll always be remembered as one of the most good actors in my list of the late 80s and early 90s talents.

Whatever it is, I've never cried as much as when Heath Ledger passed away....

This is a mighty sad entry...I'm choking sea of tears on posting this..

Thought of the day...

When was the last time we were thankful to God for the fact that we were born here in a peaceful country called Malaysia where there's no war and genocides?

WORLD WAR 2

The prisoners of Auschwitz Camp

Many of us thought that only Jews were killed at this notorious camp by Hitler and his followers. Actually, there were also Christians and other religions (based on what I've read), with some of them being the Roma and Sintis'. They're more commonly known as Gypsies.

The Food they ate

Breakfast

- Half litre of 'coffee', which doesn't taste like the coffee we drank. It was more like a dark coloured water.

- 1 litre of vegetable soup (often made from rotten cabbages and other veggies) these often has worms in it which 'floats' on top of the soup.

Supper

- 300g of black bread (about a third of a modern loaf), 30g (1 oz) of margarine, 20g of sausage (equivalent to a quarter of one modern thick sausage) and some more 'coffee'.

The black bread tasted like a lump of dirt and mashed newspapers.

The prisoners lived in appalling conditions. Some had to sleep on straw on the floor. Later, wooden bunks (the prisoners slept five to a bed) and straw mattresses were introduced. They shared a few dirty pieces of blanket. All of them got terribly bitten by the bugs and they had scabies.

They had to do hard labour work at the camp such as carrying heavy rocks and stuffs. For people doing such hard physical labour , the food they had were starvation rations.

Here are some testimonials of the Auschwitz survivors

"We had to stand in line to get our daily bread along with our coffee. The bread was around 200 grams and black...We were given a small aluminum bowl where they poured our coffee into and a large spoon to drink the coffee with. Along with our bread, they gave us a small cube of margarine. The bowl and spoon were our one and only worldly possessions...We had to take our eating utensils with us because we needed them at lunchtime when it was served at the work site. The soup they served us was utterly digusting. It was a cabbage soup and floating on top were worms. We had a difficult time eating it...”

Some brave ones managed to eat more or at least a good food a day such as those assigned to peel vegetables, where they would quickly grab a carrot, turnips or anything reachable and put it in their pocket.

For more, read "A Life of Hope, Memoirs of Nadia the Survivor" by Peter Anton, ISBN 0-9736966-0-5

“The food was some kind of feed, called soup, a dark, watery liquid, for which one had again to stand in line in order to get some of it into a small tin bowl - not even full. Within a couple of weeks we all became thin, numb and listless, just as those who had been before us in Auschwitz. Our camp was called Birkenau. B 2 B. Block 12.

My prayer goes today to the women and children who have suffered the consequences of the second world war, and I also pray to God to bring peace on earth for our future generation.

Family First

I love my family. Everyone does. We all do. Seems i've been a bit carried away with my work and life's adventure that i've taken them for granted. I used to be so family oriented when i was younger, it started to fade away when i was granted total freedom by the thing called time and age.

They are always in my heart wherever I go. They don't judge me, they are the only ones who accepted me with all my strength and weaknesses. They are my parents...My mama and papa.

Having been pampered from the day me and my twin sister were born, up to nine years old when we had to share it with fatin and 12 years old when aina was born. Still, their love for us all four is endless.

My mama... we don't seem to aggree with ech other that much but what she didnt know, (and i bet she wouldnt ever know since she's not so into blog reading and getting online) is the fact that i truly admire her. I love her sense of style, and persona. She's smart, she's kind hearted and strong. She stays true to her principle, and she never forgets her root and where she came from. She struggled hard to get to where she is standing today, and i love the way she handled her self composure. Always staying calm, would never be bitten by panic attack, saying things before thinking, and again i would say, keeping calm.

Though she may burst out of anger sometimes, that could only be seen by those close to her heart.

These qualities could probably be the reason why she is tied with another individual that i too so admire in my life, my papa.

papa is smart. literally. with everything there should be a logical reason. balance is of utmost importance. he might have calculated all the possibilities and outcome when he married my mama. that would be the kind of joke hewould make.

funny intelligent jokes that not all my uncles could truly comprehend. only some of them gets it. the others would just pause and take some amount of seconds before laughing, some would even laugh the next day.

you see, my papa has a pure kind heart. why i say pure is because everyone is kind. in my father's case it would be different. he may not be kind to all nonsense. he will use critical thinking and a whole lot of logical equations before deciding and judging. he dont just look at you, he'll look through you.

when other poeple say that looks can be deceiving, it will never applies to him. try lying to him. not so many succeed. his instinct is stronger than yoda.

apparently, his impressions were mostly right. if there's something wrong with this person, and everyone disaggree coz they couldnt see it the way he does, just give things a few days or maybe years when they would see his premonitions were indeed true. it happens in quite a lot of situations.

sometimes, this feature of him made him a bit less likeable. but that doesnt make him cruel to the person he judged. in the end, he'll stay okay with the person, while others would be mean knowing the outcomes the person had gave them.

that's a pure kind heart.

im my observation, none of us four girls have both the qualities my parents have. we're all unique and different in our own ways. that might be the reason why we work best as a unit. One whole family.

For mama and papa, happy mother's and father's day, wherever you both are.

Food Vending Machine

Wouldnt it be nice if we can have these in our country. In the office maybe.
Then we dont have to go out and face the bad traffic, bad parking, bad service at the restaurant....or in other word... to strive for lunch everyday.

Wow! Yang ini ada TGIF Potato skins ngan buffalo wings!

Kesiannya Gajah.

Alkisah in Africa, a magnificent bull elephant died of old age. For us, it would be a saddening sight...

But for the starving of Zimbabwe, it was little short of a miracle.
The carcass provided a vital source of food, and hundreds of desperate villagers in the Gonarezhou National Park descended on the dead animal within minutes of its discovery.

Using machetes, axes and knives made from tin cans they set upon the six-ton carcass, which was found deep in scrubland.

Fights broke out as villagers battled to strip chunks of flesh from the animal and drag them away to feed their families. Semua berebut-rebut nak ambik....

The bones of the 70-year-old animal were taken to boil for soup and within 24 hours nothing was left but a blood-stained patch of earth...

Tulang pun tak tinggal beb... bebayang je yg ade...

pepepergh. apela rasa gajah tu agaknye...hmmmmm

NAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAkkkKKkkkKKKkkK!

<---eeee..mentah!
This is Big Texan 72 Oz steak. If you can finish it (together with its sides which are a big bowl of salad, baked potatoes, shrimp cocktails and rolls...) in one hour, the meal is on the house. But if you fail, you'll need to pay $72. That's like 2 hundred something RM. The rule is that...you cant be assisted, throwing up would be disqualified, and you'll have to wallop everything in one hour...on the stage, with everyone watching and cheering EAT EAT EAT...(ok i'm getting a little bit carried away there)...

DO YOU WANT TO TAKE THIS CHALLENGE? You'll have to fly to the States and go to TEXAS.
Mas flies to Los Angeles and you can checkout any flights to Texas from LAX.